Hello, Old Friend, Hello
It’s hard to say exactly why I haven’t posted here in so long. Many exciting things have happened in the last three months. LCF and I went to Paris, where I modeled for Velvet D’Amour and hung out with my beloved pal Rufus, I turned another year older and had a party, I dragged LCF down to VA for his very first Passover with my fam, I finally made it out to Night of 1000 Stevies (The ultimate Stevie Nicks tribute party) with Karen, and I did all the other band and magazine and cooking and just living things that I normally do. But for some reason, I suddenly got shy about documenting my life. Not that I was afraid someone out there on Al Gore’s world-wide Inter-web would read it, but because I didn’t want to read it. I didn’t want to think about it (it being my life), and this shyness started permeating more than just my blog. I haven’t been as excited about going to parties and events. Sometimes even small gatherings with friends make me anxious (my clothes are stupid…what if I say something offensive?). Overall I’ve been quieter. More withdrawn. I’d like to say more introspective, but that would imply some sort of deep, intellectual goings-on that I don’t really feel are warranted. Anyway - today that seemed to lift a little. I started looking at my photos from the last three months and they made me smile, and I thought that maybe writing here again would give me something else to smile about if I decide to look back and read it some time in the future. Maybe in an especially troubling or isolated moment, I’ll be able to read something here and remember all the reasons why it’s a good idea to leave the house sometimes.
May 16th, 2008 at 7:18 pm
Han loves Emily.
June 4th, 2008 at 12:11 pm
It could be city-living related. People in big cities seem to go through periods of social anxiety and NYC is one of the biggest. You can always come visit Toronto. Everyone there is introverted!